Monday, July 13, 2015

We Can't Be Naked at the Beach



As Federer battles Djokovic at Wimbledon, I'm watching the boys at the beach while their mother smacks a basket of tennis balls with a dreamy dark haired pro named Leo.

The boys fill buckets with sand, a respectful distance from two bigger boys.

"I have that same bathing suit at home," says the older boy, Hugh, pointing to Tripp's blue and green surfer shorts. Tripp's got on his navy blue Crocs and a white tee shirt. Ollie is wearing red and white trunks, a blue polo shirt and tiny Crocs like Tripp's.

We drift toward the edge of the Sound, poking at seaweed and shells with sticks, picking up and discarding stones, then wade in up to our knees.

I show them how to rub special sienna colored stones together to make Indian paint.

"Cock," Ollie says, offering me two large shiny black rocks. "Big cock!"

"He wants you to throw them," Tripp explains.

"Do horseshoe crabs bite?" he asks after a moment.

"I don't think so," I say, "and they are older than dinosaurs."

"Whoa."

A wavelet topples Ollie, who is hunkered down splashing with his hands.

We whisk off his shirt and I hurry to put on a dry one before his mother sees.

When Ollie starts to pull down his bathing suit, Tripp admonishes, "No, Ollie, Mommy says we can't be naked at the beach."

"How about going on the slide?" I say hastily. "Ollie, slide?"

"Yeh, side," Ollie agrees in the voice of a pint-sized mafioso. "Over dere." 

Two lithe young women with long brown hair and matching red one-piece suits stroll by.

"Hey, Tripp!" they say. "Going swimming?"

Tripp drops to the sand.

"Are they your counselors?" I whisper. Tripp is a Minnow.

Tripp stiffens, and I remember when his mother was four, and a certain blonde lifeguard named John Ames captured her heart. Side by side on the throne of the lifeguard chair they perched, twirling their silver whistles. Katherine's feisty, salty, sandy body wrapped in a beach towel, her hot tears at summer's end.

Ollie walks the perimeter of the play area in the shade cooled sand. "A, B, C," he chants. "1, 2, 3. Q."

"I don't go on the monkey bars," Tripp tells me. He climbs to the top of the play structure where I am to catch him as he jumps, flip him upside down and swing him to the top of the slide.

Ollie places one bare foot on the trunk of the shade tree and looks up. 

"Tree," he says, pointing.

"I think he's looking for his family," I say to Tripp.

We have croissants and blueberry muffins and lemonade for breakfast, seated at white picnic tables in the children's area.

"Let's go watch Mommy, " I say.

Ollie makes for the dock and open water but Tripp herds him back toward the tennis courts. "Buh!" cries Ollie, when he spies the neon yellow tennis balls blanketing the court. "BUH!" 

His mother throws a few over the fence to us.

"I'm thirsty," Tripp says. "I need some water."

"Beauma can get you some water," Katherine says pointedly. 

Ollie heaves both tennis balls into the Sound.

"Uh, oh," he says.

"Let's go back to the play area," Tripp says.

"Okey doke."

"Beauma! Is this a big boogie?" Tripp asks, halting to investigate the inside of his nose with a forefinger. He shows me a small crusty speck.

"No, it's not a big boogie."

"Good, because a big boogie means I might get a bloody nose."

"Well, that is definitely not a big boogie. No worries."

"EEEEEeeee," screeches Ollie. I grab him under the belly and we streak across the lawn away from the men's doubles tournament, past the "Adults Only" porch, leaving their mom a few minutes of peace.

"How about a pop, Ollie?" I pant.

Mid-screech, Ollie stops kicking. "Pop?" "POP?" 

"Yes," Tripp and I say. "POP!"

"Yeh, pop," Ollie agrees. "Over dere."


























Friday, July 3, 2015

Gossamer


Mom and I are taking a slow turn around the neighborhood. She's wearing navy blue slacks, beige shoes that close with velcro, and a pink shirt with black dots. Her pale blue eyes are skyward, focused on another reality just beyond this one, peopled with shadowy figures. She traces the shapes, shops, and shoes she sees there in the air with her fingers.

A  trim, petite, perfectly coiffed elderly woman makes her way to us slowly on her walking stick. 

"Hello!" she says brightly, "It's so wonderful to see you, Helene." She pats my mother's hand, and Mom slips briefly into autopilot: "Wonderful to see you," she responds.

I spy an errant silver hair on my mother's slacks and pluck it off surreptitiously. 

The woman, Mrs. McBean, has a tiny perky terrier named Pablo, also perfectly coiffed. I'm suddenly ashamed of my hiking shorts and flip flops, the traces of recently tinted eyebrows that make me look - I'm convinced - like Eddie Munster.

Liz, Mom's nurse, says, "Oh, look, Mrs. Victor, it's Pablo."

"Volka?" Mom frowns, scanning the skies.

"Pablo," we repeat.

"Well, dear, I'm off to play bridge," Mrs. McBean says.

My heart aches for Mom, who played duplicate bridge regularly with her pals. Now her pals are mostly gone. There's faithful Winnie, 98, who comes for lunch on occasion, and Nancy from the church, who comes Sundays to give communion. Mom frets over reading her part of the lesson, and if her anxiety persists, she watches Frank (Sinatra) on utube, gently tapping her fingers in time to Fly Me to the Moon. A private concert.

Rosie calls occasionally from Florida, her frail voice whispery soft. It's a privilege to witness the tenderness between them, the gossamer connection of 70 years.  

We go as far as the mailbox and turn slowly toward home. Liz is careful, patiently pushing the wheelchair ever so slowly, so Mom doesn't get disoriented and think she's pitching forward.

I cut a big bunch of vivid blue and violet hydrangeas and put them right before her eyes, but she doesn't register them. At least not today. I resist the urge to say, "They're right here, Mom. See? See?"